WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?

I don't know but every single day of my life is crap! I'm socially awkward and can't take it anymore. I have friends who I don't rlly consider friends, and i'm pretty sure they don't ike me. Everyone in my school ignores me because I never talk. They don't realize that I don't talk because I don't know what to say. I don't know how to be interesting and want the person to be able to talk to me. I guess I'm just a boring person and this is the way things r meant to be for me. I have been in this situation for a bout 4 years and I can't deal with it. The problem with me is that I can't bloody think of interesting things to say. People really think I'm stuck up. I really wish I cou.ld be more outgiong and talk more. Life never was like this when I was a kid. ( By the way I'm in grade 10). I don't know what to do anymore and can't deal with this **** anymore.